Tuesday, 18 November 2008

More questions?

I met the other midwife today (there are only 2) and she seemed worse than the previous one, she was much younger and I don’t think she has children of her own. She also seemed to be in her own little world, she was more interested in hearing about England rather than talking about the baby. I expressed a little worry about being induced because of the time of year I am due and she gave me the same speech about it being bad for the baby to stay in there longer than necessary. She basically told me that if I don’t go into labour by my due date they will induce me. Agghhhhh. My husband was there but like me he didn’t say anything, but as soon as we got out of there, he told me not to let her be the midwife on duty when I give birth, (I don’t exactly have a choice, it is down to whoever is on duty at the time). He wasn’t impressed with the whole induction thing either. When I told my mum she told me not to panic and if I don’t go to the clinic until I am in labour they can’t exactly induce me which is very true. It is so hard to stay calm about all these things at the moment especially as I am already anxious enough as it is.
I am trying very hard not to get worked up over it because I know it isn’t good for me or the baby at this point. I have kind of reached the point of not caring so much about things like stirrips, and being kept in for 3 days as long as I am not induced and remain unmedicated throughout I think I can handle the stirrups. Also my husband doesn’t think the vitamin K thing is an issue, he sees it as a good thing if it means the baby is less at risk of having problems later down the line, I’m not so sure. I think I need to have a firm word with my Dr when I next see him and reiterate that I don’t want any medication or interference.
My motherinlaw was telling me the other day that I should go to the clinic as soon as I feel my first contraction yeah right, they will definitely break my waters and/or interfere, and as if I want to be there for all those hours. The less time I spend there the better. She doesn’t really understand my theories and has a lot of faith in medicine and Dr’s because of her past with cancer and miscarriages. Also when she had Panos they were probably more cautious with her because she miscarried so many times before that, I don’t pay much attention to what she says most of the time, not because I don’t respect her opinion but mainly because she is very old-school and most of the time I feel she is just saying stuff for the sake of it, or saying what she thinks I want to hear.