I have now fully accepted what is happening to my body and what is soon to be happening in my life.
How am I feeling? My hormones seem a little bit better, I don't seem too stressed and low, then again accepting all of this and getting over the shock has probably helped massively.
I am not feeling as sickly as I was before but I do have my moments. However I am wanting all the foods I know I shouldn't eat. Yesterday I ate 2 apple danish type things. I was quite satisfied with the 1 but had an extra one and couldn't resist the second I then felt very guilty and very bloated.
I have come to realise that if I overeat I feel sickly and if I let myself get too hungry I also feel out of sorts. So I have to make sure I don't get hungry and I eat little and often. Not always easy to do when I have a lot of running around to do at the moment. And I don't particularly want to be eating too much right now because I have a very fitting wedding dress to get into in a couple of weeks time.
I haven't put any extra weight on, only the couple of pounds I initially lost the first few days I found out I was pregnant and couldn't eat a lot. I just hope I can sustain that weight. Technically I should be able to.
Back to the food, I am consoling myself by making fresh juices including OJ which contains Folate which has an important role to play in helping people achieve good folic acid status, I am also trying to incorporate some greens in there too. I am also soaking almonds every day and eating some of those or mixing them into smoothies along with raw tahini for calcium. I also couldn't resist a packet of Halva yesterday while I was in the supermarket even though it is cooked it is made with honey instead of sugar and is mostly sesame paste which is high in calcium even if cooked. I should just make my own, but it is hard enough making my own juices let alone everything else.
Right now my baby is the size of a 5 pence piece and is developing its organs.
Ideally I should be booking my first Dr's appointment but when I am supposed to fit that in I don't know. It will have to wait till after the wedding if I see a Dr at all, I haven’t decided. Panos of course wants to see our baby on an ultrasound screen and has all the ideas about pregnancy in his head that are shown on the TV; ultrasounds, clean, easy hospital deliveries etc.
I am off to London on Saturday I am not looking forward to the 5 hour bus ride to Athens too much, Even though I haven’t been sick at all I'll have to make sure I take some carrier bags with me just in case I do feel sick on the bus or plane. I’ve been thinking a lot about when we tell our parents. Now that I am used to the idea I think I can handle it. I still think it would only be fair to tell both sets of parents together I just hope I can contain myself by then. I know that once I tell my mum the whole world will know. So I’ll probably wait till after the wedding as planned and if we get the chance we'll tell them before we come back to Greece, it doesn't give us much time but it beats waiting till the end of May when my parents come to Greece. Plus I want to start telling people and getting my blog off the ground.
Wednesday, 23 April 2008
Sunday, 20 April 2008
Accepting, adjusting and bouncing ideas
I am slowly coming around to the idea of having a baby, it is becoming a reality and I think I have come a long way.
Panos is finally understanding that this is a big step and that changes are already becoming apparent in me, i.e. my hormones playing with my emotions and I think he is now accepting that I will and do feel sickly at times. He didn’t realise that sickness and hormone changes come about so soon, he expected me to go through these when it is actually visible that I am pregnant. I discovered a website: http://www.askbaby.com/ which allows you to track your babies development every week with an animation of how it looks and details about the kind of symptoms one can experience during this week and the week by week development of the foetus. Using the website I have been able to show Panos the huge changes taking place in my body and make him understand that my mood swings are not me being awkward.
I am trying my best to stay raw but it is very difficult because when I am hungry I have to eat there and then and the past few days I have been rushed out of the house without having eaten and had to eat while out. Hence grabbing rice cakes or a vegan spinach pie. One good thing is that it is fasting time here in Greece so vegan food is easy to come by, unfortunately raw food isn't. Unless I was to go to the green grocer and buy some apples or something which isn't appealing to me right now.
When I am at home I am ok, I have an idea in my head of what I should be eating and how I want to eat it, and because of the lack of temptation I am able to do it. There are days when I want to eat everything, and there are days when nothing is appealing to me and it is hard to get anything into me. Today was one of those days.
I woke up late and decided to do some yoga, I don't know if that was such a good idea. I did feel better afterwards and very hungry, but there were times during my practice that I got a little dizzy. I was careful and didn't do any upside down poses. After yoga I made a green juice with cucumber, celery and apple (whatever I had at home), after I drank my cup full (about 500ml) I felt a little sickly. I tried hard to ignore it, I find that if I keep myself busy it isn't so bad. So after sitting on the internet for a little bit I made some tahini because sesame seeds contain a lot of calcium and I read somewhere that even though the body at this time isn't able to absorb more calcium I still have to make sure I get an adequate amount in my diet. While making it I tried a little each time I stopped the food processor. At about 3ish Panos came home and started drinking beer so I talked him into letting me have his juice too.
We then decided to take a drive down to the Koronisia (the coast) where I sat in the sun and drank 2 glasses of orange juices, pasteurised of course, but there wasn't much option and I have to be careful not to get hungry because that is when I start to feel crappy. By the time we were on our way home I needed to pee and with Panos crazy driving I was feeling quite quesy by the time we pulled into the drive. Panos then proceeded to cook his fish on the BBQ while I got on and made an olive relish with the most amazing unsalted Kalamata olives it turned out quite nice but again by the time it came to sitting and eating I couldn't really face it. I ended up picking at it a little bit and just eating the cucumber slices and tomato quarters and I picked at some cooked sweet potato which was left from the day before. By the end of dinner I was feeling really tired and not too good at all, so we decided to have a little nap. I think we were asleep for about 10 minutes when Panos phone rang and woke me up. I then couldn't go back to sleep and read until about 9pm. I then decided to get up and make a raw shake with the tahini. I blended a banana, some soaked almonds, strawberries and tahini with water cinnamon carob nutmeg and ground clove. It wasn't too bad tasting but wasn't great. Panos drank his no problem. It took me over an hour to drink mine because I didn't really want it and started to feel quesy after the first few sips, but I kept trying and eventually drank the lot.
Today I think I am feeling the worst I have so far and literally every hour I need to pee without even drinking that much, I don't know where the fluid is coming from.
So far we have briefly spoken about a home birth, but I am not sure Panos is taking me seriously. We also briefly touched on the subject of what our kids will eat. From his point of view he ate everything as a kid and turned out ok, which included meat, dairy, sweets and all sorts of crap. My views are of course different, although I have visions of my motherinlaw feeding my kids all kinds of crap behind my back I will try to stand my ground, but I don't think I will be a crazy parent who wont let my kids go near anything cooked. I think I will be fighting a lost cause in Greece and I am not resigning myself to my kids eating a SUKD diet but the same way I do what I can when I am at home and relax to a certain extent when out or visiting others I will probably take the same stand point with my baby/babies.
Panos is finally understanding that this is a big step and that changes are already becoming apparent in me, i.e. my hormones playing with my emotions and I think he is now accepting that I will and do feel sickly at times. He didn’t realise that sickness and hormone changes come about so soon, he expected me to go through these when it is actually visible that I am pregnant. I discovered a website: http://www.askbaby.com/ which allows you to track your babies development every week with an animation of how it looks and details about the kind of symptoms one can experience during this week and the week by week development of the foetus. Using the website I have been able to show Panos the huge changes taking place in my body and make him understand that my mood swings are not me being awkward.
I am trying my best to stay raw but it is very difficult because when I am hungry I have to eat there and then and the past few days I have been rushed out of the house without having eaten and had to eat while out. Hence grabbing rice cakes or a vegan spinach pie. One good thing is that it is fasting time here in Greece so vegan food is easy to come by, unfortunately raw food isn't. Unless I was to go to the green grocer and buy some apples or something which isn't appealing to me right now.
When I am at home I am ok, I have an idea in my head of what I should be eating and how I want to eat it, and because of the lack of temptation I am able to do it. There are days when I want to eat everything, and there are days when nothing is appealing to me and it is hard to get anything into me. Today was one of those days.
I woke up late and decided to do some yoga, I don't know if that was such a good idea. I did feel better afterwards and very hungry, but there were times during my practice that I got a little dizzy. I was careful and didn't do any upside down poses. After yoga I made a green juice with cucumber, celery and apple (whatever I had at home), after I drank my cup full (about 500ml) I felt a little sickly. I tried hard to ignore it, I find that if I keep myself busy it isn't so bad. So after sitting on the internet for a little bit I made some tahini because sesame seeds contain a lot of calcium and I read somewhere that even though the body at this time isn't able to absorb more calcium I still have to make sure I get an adequate amount in my diet. While making it I tried a little each time I stopped the food processor. At about 3ish Panos came home and started drinking beer so I talked him into letting me have his juice too.
We then decided to take a drive down to the Koronisia (the coast) where I sat in the sun and drank 2 glasses of orange juices, pasteurised of course, but there wasn't much option and I have to be careful not to get hungry because that is when I start to feel crappy. By the time we were on our way home I needed to pee and with Panos crazy driving I was feeling quite quesy by the time we pulled into the drive. Panos then proceeded to cook his fish on the BBQ while I got on and made an olive relish with the most amazing unsalted Kalamata olives it turned out quite nice but again by the time it came to sitting and eating I couldn't really face it. I ended up picking at it a little bit and just eating the cucumber slices and tomato quarters and I picked at some cooked sweet potato which was left from the day before. By the end of dinner I was feeling really tired and not too good at all, so we decided to have a little nap. I think we were asleep for about 10 minutes when Panos phone rang and woke me up. I then couldn't go back to sleep and read until about 9pm. I then decided to get up and make a raw shake with the tahini. I blended a banana, some soaked almonds, strawberries and tahini with water cinnamon carob nutmeg and ground clove. It wasn't too bad tasting but wasn't great. Panos drank his no problem. It took me over an hour to drink mine because I didn't really want it and started to feel quesy after the first few sips, but I kept trying and eventually drank the lot.
Today I think I am feeling the worst I have so far and literally every hour I need to pee without even drinking that much, I don't know where the fluid is coming from.
So far we have briefly spoken about a home birth, but I am not sure Panos is taking me seriously. We also briefly touched on the subject of what our kids will eat. From his point of view he ate everything as a kid and turned out ok, which included meat, dairy, sweets and all sorts of crap. My views are of course different, although I have visions of my motherinlaw feeding my kids all kinds of crap behind my back I will try to stand my ground, but I don't think I will be a crazy parent who wont let my kids go near anything cooked. I think I will be fighting a lost cause in Greece and I am not resigning myself to my kids eating a SUKD diet but the same way I do what I can when I am at home and relax to a certain extent when out or visiting others I will probably take the same stand point with my baby/babies.
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